Thursday, May 13, 2010

Goodbye for Now...Kinda

Please join me here:

After much thought and soul searching, I've decided to merge my two blogs into one. I started this blog with the intention and hope that I might raise some awareness about Down syndrome and also connect with the amazing community of mommies who are out there in the blogosphere. I hope that instead of having two fairly neglected blogs I might just be able to pull of one that is pretty decent.

There are several reasons for this decision, the first being first and foremost about time constraints. This fall, I plan on returning back to school to obtain my masters in nursing with the hope of someday becoming a family nurse practitioner. It's already quite difficult to find the time to post with my very busy family life and work.

I'm thinking I might change the name of Muslim Mama (found here) to "A Beautiful Life". I gave this blog it's name because I truly do feel that Yusef's life is a beautiful one, one that has every right to exist, one that is perfect, and one whose story deserves to be told.  That absolutely hasn't changed.

So please, please, please come join me there. I know I'll continue to follow all of you amazing moms and beautiful children out there.

So do you all got that URL yet? Here it is again, in case you missed it

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Thick Skin

Words can hurt, they can pierce your heart and bring tears to your eyes. Once they are said, they can never be undone, they travel into space having passed over the one they were to leave behind, broken.

I sometimes wish this blog were anonymous. I could post all my true feelings and no one would ever be the wiser to my true identity. Someone has hurt me deeply with their words. A phrase said in passing, not a second thought given to anyone but me, but I was left there stunned. The meanness of these words, the utter disregard for all people who were born different, intellectually challenged, special needs, whatever phrase you may choose, but oh, not that one. Not that one.

It was not said by a mean person. It was not meant in regards to my son. But they are there, those words, spit out into the world and I don't believe I can ever see this person the same.

How did I get here? How did I become the champion of all people like my son, those who society has cast aside and willingly disparages with its words? How far will it go? Will I lose people I hold close in this world over these words?

Will I ever be able to cast off these words and toss them aside? Do I want to? I don't know right now. I can never go back to the world I used to know.